Smokes For Less

I haven't had a cigarette for three weeks. I think the past month I was just smoking because it was something to do and I've been doing it for so long. Pretty much off and on since I was about 16 or 17. I started taking breaks at work just to have a cigarette. Not good when you work in healthcare and smell like smoke. Almost defeats the purpose. I was smoking in my car when I didn't have Ethan with me. Then it got to the point where I was smoking on my balcony in front of Ethan. Granted, he was inside and I was not, but still, that began to bother me more and more. I kept thinking, "This is not a good thing. This is NOT okay." I finally waited until he went to bed before I smoked and that was the only time I allowed myself to do it. I finally got to not wanting cigarettes at all and having them taste like ass...more so than before.
I really want a glass of wine...or a beer...but cigarettes taste oh so good with alcohol. So I'm holding off. I really want a cigarette too. But I like not spending my money on them, and being able to breathe and not having breath that, regardless of how many times I brush, still smells and tastes like an asstray. I'm pretty excited that I haven't had one for this long. I think the longest I've gone before is a few days, or a couple weeks. New personal best for me! I WIN....for now.......

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