Saturday, April 17, 2010
This Sucks
I used to not mind working Saturday's. Now that Ethan's playing soccer and I'm supposed to be co-coach, Saturday's suck because he plays EVERY. SINGLE. Saturday until the end of May. The suck worse than any other day of the week. They suck worse than my busiest day at work. They suck worse than being broken down in the middle of nowhere. They suck worse than being broke at Christmas. Saturday's suck.
Monday, April 12, 2010
On My Own
I thought I was going to "participate" in the biggest loser at work. I didn't. Since August I've been going to see a health coach every two weeks. She resigned about 3 weeks ago and I haven't seen her since our last meeting. I hope she's doing well with her new job. I'll be assigned a new coach. I don't want one. It's not that I liked my old one so well, I don't want a new one. It's that the past three weeks without her, I've had more success being healthy than I did with her.
The reason? It felt like a chore to me. If anyone knows me, they know I hate chores. I don't do well with them. So what I thought would ultimately help me, ended up actually hindering me. Now that I don't have anyone to "answer" to, I feel more confident that I can do this. I actually want to eat healthy. I want to exercise. I want to look good. We all want to look good, but I want it more now than I have in the past 8 months. I feel compelled to do all these things. For me. Not for someone else. Which is another reason I'm not going back.
Another reason? I'm happy with my life now. There are things in my life that still need work, but if I focus on them, I can get through it. I had salmon, salad, and rice for dinner tonight. Not on a huge dinner plate, but a small luncheon plate. It was enough. I am content except for the fact that I will be having about 2 oz of ice cream. Only 2 because it's a 6 oz container and I already ate about 1/3 of it last week.
I'm not sure if I've lost any weight, but I feel more confident in my self image. I don't think I look overly fantastic, but I FEEL fantastic. I have vacation in 3 months, and a wedding of which I am an integral part in a little over a year to keep my motivation up and going.
This time, on my own, I KNOW I can do this.
The reason? It felt like a chore to me. If anyone knows me, they know I hate chores. I don't do well with them. So what I thought would ultimately help me, ended up actually hindering me. Now that I don't have anyone to "answer" to, I feel more confident that I can do this. I actually want to eat healthy. I want to exercise. I want to look good. We all want to look good, but I want it more now than I have in the past 8 months. I feel compelled to do all these things. For me. Not for someone else. Which is another reason I'm not going back.
Another reason? I'm happy with my life now. There are things in my life that still need work, but if I focus on them, I can get through it. I had salmon, salad, and rice for dinner tonight. Not on a huge dinner plate, but a small luncheon plate. It was enough. I am content except for the fact that I will be having about 2 oz of ice cream. Only 2 because it's a 6 oz container and I already ate about 1/3 of it last week.
I'm not sure if I've lost any weight, but I feel more confident in my self image. I don't think I look overly fantastic, but I FEEL fantastic. I have vacation in 3 months, and a wedding of which I am an integral part in a little over a year to keep my motivation up and going.
This time, on my own, I KNOW I can do this.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Random Update
I signed Ethan up for soccer. I still haven't heard anything so hopefully we will soon.
I'm pretty sure I had a nervous breakdown a couple weeks but I worked through it. Luckily Ethan wasn't around to see it. I just realized my family really is there for me and it's an amazing feeling.
My brother is engaged and I'm REALLY REALLY excited about it!! I love him and I love his fiancee. She's super cool and she fits with our family.
Ethan and I will be going to MI for our Spring Break trip in two weeks. I have the ENTIRE 5 days off!!! My brother and his fiancee will be up there for a couple days and then it will be Ethan and me. Excited!!
I'm in a country music listening mood right now so that's what I'll be listening to until I find some other music to listen to. Yes, I like country. Really, I do.
Now that it's nice out I plan on getting my butt up and moving. I have a goal to lose 10 lbs by Ethan's birthday in exactly one month.
I can't believe my baby is almost 6!!!!
I love my apartment. It's messy right now, I absolutely LOVE it.
I applied to Ivy Tech because I FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY decided what I want to do when I grow up...or at least pretend really well to be one. The human body fascinates me. I want to get my hands in it. I want to be in the OR assisting the surgeons. I've decided to be a Surgical/OR tech. I'm really excited about it!!
Ethan is in his "what if?" stage right now. It's fun. "Mommy, what if we had wings?" "Mommy, what if we were robots?"
I'm not picking up any extra hours this summer because I want to spend as much time with my son as I can doing fun things and just spending time together. Last year we couldn't do a whole lot because we had just moved into our apartment and didn't have a whole lot of money. This year I plan on going to Indians games, the Zoo, The Children's Museum, and camping. Plus we'll be going on vacation and I'll probably plan a couple overnights somewhere...cheap.
My cat likes to pee on the floor so we've been putting her in a cage when we're not home. I cleaned the carpets with baking soda, dawn, and H2O2. The smell is pretty much gone. NOW I need to get her fixed.
Ethan and I watch Dirty Jobs together since I record it. He lets me know when Michael says bad words and wants to know if he can say them, too. Don't ask me why he calls Mike Rowe Michael, but he does. We have fun together.
That's it.
I'm pretty sure I had a nervous breakdown a couple weeks but I worked through it. Luckily Ethan wasn't around to see it. I just realized my family really is there for me and it's an amazing feeling.
My brother is engaged and I'm REALLY REALLY excited about it!! I love him and I love his fiancee. She's super cool and she fits with our family.
Ethan and I will be going to MI for our Spring Break trip in two weeks. I have the ENTIRE 5 days off!!! My brother and his fiancee will be up there for a couple days and then it will be Ethan and me. Excited!!
I'm in a country music listening mood right now so that's what I'll be listening to until I find some other music to listen to. Yes, I like country. Really, I do.
Now that it's nice out I plan on getting my butt up and moving. I have a goal to lose 10 lbs by Ethan's birthday in exactly one month.
I can't believe my baby is almost 6!!!!
I love my apartment. It's messy right now, I absolutely LOVE it.
I applied to Ivy Tech because I FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY decided what I want to do when I grow up...or at least pretend really well to be one. The human body fascinates me. I want to get my hands in it. I want to be in the OR assisting the surgeons. I've decided to be a Surgical/OR tech. I'm really excited about it!!
Ethan is in his "what if?" stage right now. It's fun. "Mommy, what if we had wings?" "Mommy, what if we were robots?"
I'm not picking up any extra hours this summer because I want to spend as much time with my son as I can doing fun things and just spending time together. Last year we couldn't do a whole lot because we had just moved into our apartment and didn't have a whole lot of money. This year I plan on going to Indians games, the Zoo, The Children's Museum, and camping. Plus we'll be going on vacation and I'll probably plan a couple overnights somewhere...cheap.
My cat likes to pee on the floor so we've been putting her in a cage when we're not home. I cleaned the carpets with baking soda, dawn, and H2O2. The smell is pretty much gone. NOW I need to get her fixed.
Ethan and I watch Dirty Jobs together since I record it. He lets me know when Michael says bad words and wants to know if he can say them, too. Don't ask me why he calls Mike Rowe Michael, but he does. We have fun together.
That's it.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Here I Go Again
Last year I chronicled my trials, stresses and successes during the biggest loser challenge at work. We're doing it again this year only I've opted not to do it. Not officially at least. I plan on doing everything I did before; watch portion sizes, make healthier choices, be active. The good news is that I've pretty much plateaued on my weight for the past year. The bad news is that I've plateaued on my weight the past year. But I think I'd rather stay +/- 5 pounds that have fluctuated than gain back all 22 pounds I lost. The other good news, I'm 22 pounds lighter than I was last year when I started. I'm determined to lose another 20 pounds. My goal is to lose it by Ethan's birthday...April 15th...and keep going until I'm at a healthy weight. Not what I want to be, which I think will make me look super unhealthy and gross (120-125), but a healthy weight (135-145) and maintain it like I never have before. I'm already hungry and the competition hasn't started yet. Unofficially, I started about 2 or 3 weeks ago and I've lost 3 pounds in the process. I have a Wii Fit and I need to use it more than I do. I need to sweat. I need to get to the gym. I have three places where I can get physical activity so I have no excuse to not do anything. I've done it before and I can do it again. When I go grocery shopping this week I'll be taking a menu with me so I know what Ethan and I will be having over the next few weeks. It will be healthy, it will be low fat, he may not like some of the options I'll be making but I'll be doing my best to make the meals tasty for both of us. Any suggestions, please let me know.
I can do this. I know I can. I just need to stay motivated. I've been going to a health coach since August and that's helped me a bit. I see her once every two weeks and she's helped me stay motivated and get motivated. She's given me good tools, and good advice, and now I think I'll be following the advice better than I have been.
Here I go again, and I'm really really looking forward to being healthy, feeling great, and looking awesome!!
I can do this. I know I can. I just need to stay motivated. I've been going to a health coach since August and that's helped me a bit. I see her once every two weeks and she's helped me stay motivated and get motivated. She's given me good tools, and good advice, and now I think I'll be following the advice better than I have been.
Here I go again, and I'm really really looking forward to being healthy, feeling great, and looking awesome!!
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