Week I'm Not Sure

It's been almost 2 months since I started the Biggest Loser. I've lost a total of 13.6 pounds which is awesome. I'll probably lose my goal of 30 pounds by mid-April if I keep this up. One of my nurses has even told me I can come look through her old clothes and she has a swimming suit that would fit me. Which is cool because the one I have is almost 5 years old and I need a new one. Once I'm not so sick I'll start exercising. Maybe walking or something small to start. I did get my Wii though! Awesome! I played for 30 minutes by myself one day and kicked my ass. I started off slow with bowling, then tennis, and ended with boxing. Boxing is a workout! I was sweating by the time I was done. It was fun though. Now I need to keep doing it so the pounds will just come off. I couldn't tell I was losing weight until Thursday morning when I went into my mom and dad's room and saw myself in their bathroom mirror. I had on a nightgown that about 2 months ago was pretty tight on me. And then Thursday, it was just hanging on me! Again, AWESOME!

Today I have on a surgical mask so I don't pollute the air of those around me. It's not on right, because if it was, my glasses get foggy, but at least I can breathe with my mouth open and not spread too many germs...or get any more hospital contagions than I already have or will get while working here. And yes, here's a lovely picture of me in what our student nurse Crystal calls my SARS mask:

It definitely doesn't look cute and neither do I...especially with the greasy looking hair and droopy eyes. Feel free to make fun of me all you want. :D

And I got an iPhone. I didn't deliberate much on that one. It's super awesome! Apparently "awesome" is my word of the day.

I've Said it Before...

...and I'll say it again. I hate being sick. I would much rather be home in bed, puking my guts out and get it done and over with in one or two days than to have to deal with being achy, headachy, sore throaty, snot nosey, and non-breathy for who knows how many weeks. I'd take the puke any, and I mean ANY day of the week, month, or year.

Start of Week 5

I was bummed last week because I didn't lose any weight. This week I got on the scale and thought, "Just two pounds. I'll be happy with two pounds." And yes, I had lost 2 more pounds! That makes it a total of 8.5 pounds in a month. Not too shabby.
I've already decided with my tax money I'm going to get a Wii (hopefully I'll get one) so I can start having some activity at home...and it's something Ethan and I can do together. I'm thinking about getting the Wii Fit too so i don't have to pay for a gym membership and I don't have to go out in the cold. We'll see how that goes. But I'm excited for it.
And a new cell phone. Mine's all busted on the front screen. I'm debating between the LG Incite and an iPhone. The LG is pretty much like an iPhone without all the super cool aps and $50 cheaper...we'll see what I decide when I go in and get one. I'm really leaning toward an iPhone though just so I can be cool. :)

The Super Bowl is also today and I'll be at work for most of it. I HATE working weekends during football season. If I could afford to I definitely would not work on Sunday's. But at least I have a job and that's all I can ask. Oh yeah, back to the Super Bowl. I'll miss most of the awesome commercials because the good ones happen during the first half and I'll get home when it's almost over. At least I'll be able to watch some of it.

GO STEELERS!

A Funny One

Last night my mom, Ethan and I were watching Dora before Ethan went to bed. They were going to a party and there were balloons.

My mom looks at Ethan and says, "What color is the red balloon?"

Ethan (as he tilts his head to the side to think about it): "I don't know."

Mom: "Listen to my question; what color is the red balloon?"

Ethan: "I don't know."

Mom: "Listen to my question again; what color is the red balloon?"

Ethan: "I don't know."

Mom: "RED!"

Ethan: "Aaaaahahahahaha!"

Yeah, that's my little boy. :)

Give A Shy Girl A Drink...

...and watch what happens. I hit the heavy stuff last night. Vodka and Diet Coke. Usually I stick with the lighter stuff, like beer or something with not so much alcohol. I could do it though because vodka+diet=0...calories that is. It was just enough alcohol to get me loose and comfortable and actually introduce myself and have conversations with people I had just met. It was a really fun night and it was nice to know that even though my talkativeness was alcohol induced, I stepped out of my comfort zone and met new people.
I saw old friends last night, too and got to talk to them and catch up a little bit and just shoot the shit.
And I'm laughing right now because I realized I was talking to myself the entire time I was driving home last night.
I enjoy spending time with Ethan, but sometimes it's nice to be an adult and hang out with people my own age.

YAY ME AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

I'VE LOST 6 POUNDS IN

TWO WEEKS!!!!


I'M AWESOME!!!!

I even cheated while we were at dinner last night...sorta. We (the whole family celebrated my brother's birthday) got a spinach and artichoke appetizer and I had a little bit of that. For dinner I had fish and chips and a salad. It was delicious.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

MY BROTHER AARON!

He's 30. :)

And on a totally unrelated note...I LOVE BREAKING BENJAMIN!




Someday I will own their albums and go see them in concert.

Day 12

I feel much better after my breakdown on Sunday. I yelled and screamed at my stupid ex and cried on my mom because I was hungry. I'm doing better with my eating. It's still hard because I LOVE to eat and I'm used to eating whatever the hell I want and damn the consequences. However, my food choices are getting easier to make. Instead of going for the greasy juicy yummy double cheeseburger from McDonald's while Ethan and I were out on Tuesday, I opted for Subway. Not what I wanted, but it ended up being just as delicious...and healthier for me. :)
And I actually ran with Ethan. Not a whole lot of running, but enough to know that I wasn't winded when we were done. It was awesome! One more small victory for me!
If I ever sound redundant, call me out on it, but I'm SOOOOO freakin' happy I'm doing this! And maybe I'll post a before picture sometime...I'll just have to find/take one. And then while I progress, I'll keep posting pictures and then at the end, do a "slideshow" of when I started to when I reach my final goal...which is more than likely going to be long after the biggest loser challenge is done at work. But I'll do an "after" picture once the challenge is over.

I Want To Cry

I'm hungry, I'm cranky, my legs are sore from taking the stairs all the damn time. I just want to go to McDonald's or Taco Bell and say, "Fuck this, I'm done!" It's very hard. Especially hard when one of the nurses I work with has already lost 11 pounds. I'm exercising, or at least doing some sort of physical activity at least 5 days a week, eating a whole hell of a lot better than I did, and she's just eating right! Oh, it makes me so mad! I'm not used to eating so little each day and I'm so hungry I just want to cry. I may do that tonight before I go to sleep...it might make me feel better.
My plan is to lose 20 pounds by the beginning of March and then keep going after that until I'm down to about 135-150. Once the first few weeks are done and I see my progress, I probably won't be so much of a whiner (or weiner) and I'll be a little more positive than I am now. Just keep giving me support and pep talks and I'm sure I'll do just fine...because let's face it, a $150 prize is gonna be quite nice if I can win it. :)

Biggest Loser: Day 5

I've been eating super healthy since Monday. Cutting down on calories, making smarter food choices, being hungry...it's all part of it. But you know what, it's a good change, a needed change. I was less than thrilled with my initial weight (and no, I'm not going to let you know either). However, I weighed myself a few minutes ago and I was so elated!

I'VE LOST 3.1 POUNDS SINCE MONDAY!!!

If I can keep this up, and I know I can, by the end of the competition, I will have reached the amount I want to lose and then keep on losing it.

YAY ME!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Holy crap, it's a new year already! It really went by pretty fast. I moved, Ethan started preschool, we did some fun stuff over the summer that we normally wouldn't have done (gone to the library, went to some movies, went on bike rides, and had fun) we went to events at the Zoo, I got my hair cut short and sassy, we went to the Children's Museum, and I FINALLY got full time at work. I know I have been seriously remiss in keeping my readers (yep, all 3 of you) up to date on my life. I suppose since I made that morning/night only internet time, it's really cut down on the time I spend online. I haven't even done anything with my Facebook and MySpace pages in who knows how long. And I have TONS of pictures to share!!! Halloween, Autumn, Christmas, and just in general. I always have good intentions of getting something more than words up here, but I just haven't gotten around to it...or I'm just lazy. I was going to post pictures on all my networking sites New Year's Eve, but I lay/laid (I'm never sure which one I'm supposed to use) my tired head down with Ethan about 10:15pm and didn't wake up until I had a friend call me after midnight. No ball watching for me this year. But I did exactly what I wanted to do...be at home with my family.

I haven't really made any resolutions yet. I know again, as always, is to take better care of myself. We're doing a Biggest Loser at work so that may be the incentive to get my butt in gear this time. And I think I'm seriously ready to do this. I bought a trampoline for my birthday and Ethan's used it more than I have. Perhaps I should actually use it.

I want a Wii, too like whoa. I've played it a few times at a friend's house and once while I was Christmas shopping. Yeah, Castleton had an area where you could play. It was so much fun. And Ethan can play, too. He's pretty awesome at bowling. He likes to play a driving game too; Penny Racers I think...or something like that. He's not too bad at that one either. I got my mom and dad to play bowling with me and I thought that was just the coolest thing ever. It would be fun to have one because it's something we could do on a Friday night, or just any night to get some fitness/fun time in for the week.

I'm hoping to get Ethan and I enrolled in a Learn to Swim class through Red Cross. There are some places close to my house so I just need to call and see what they have available. Hopefully it's through the week when I'm off work and when Ethan's not in school. I'd like to get him at least knowing the basics before we head to Florida in April. It's a good plan anyway.
And once my Biggest Loser starts, I'll be blogging about that and the progress I'm making in that area. But for now

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!